不能沒有曈暻 。 而且是有關終身服侍神的曈暻。
Because of my placement at the forensic psychiatric half-way house, the social workers' suggestion of group therapy for their in- and/or out-patient clients, being relapse prevention and/or cognitive skills rehabilitation, therefore better occupational and adaptative functioning.. I search and search the literature.
I found that behavioral family intervention, including
expressed emotion, problem-solving skills, relapse prevention
psychoeducational seminars with the patients and their care-takers
have strong evidence for decreasing number of relapse and hospitalization.
On the other hand, I found that cognitive rehabilitation or remediation has aI may get back to EC's team, that sounds a bit horrible.
medium effect size of 0.30 - 0.70 on cognitive abilities and even social and
functional outcomes, especially for UCLA's social skills training, and
integrated psychological therapy.
This give me the ground for specializing my clinical/intervention research and clinical service as a long term current and future direction. I have a peaceful mind and heart as I developed this idea. It serves my continual yearn of helping the patients
directly, something is useful for them and I can investigate about its
effectiveness through research and also implement my clinical therapeutic role
as a CP.
However, along this line, I find myself an area that I can seriously
put myself in, contribute, put in as much effort as possible, and the
academic rank and everything would be helpful too for taking up a
professional role and leading role in this.
But, along this line of career development (can find the appropriate medical school easier too for US internship)... when, where, how is my place to take up a pastoral psychologist's role??? a Pastor's role??
I feel the segregation from God as I indulge into this
cognitive remediation or academic career. It is like I would not be able to
bring this training and expertise back into the world of Christianity and as
a Pastor. I would be spending much time in that area, in that
academia-clinical role, and where is the place as a pastor? As a pastoral
psychologist in such settings, or any possibility of such roles in the
seminary???I cannot promote Christianity like a pastor would do at a
church. Buta) what is the role or how to do so through the church in my
professional/academic role in my work setting... andb) bring into the Christian world in my professional and academic role at univ.?How can I collaborate or teach in a seminary?I don't quite like the role of LH and Yip M S, but I like a more down-to-earth stance of integrating C & Psy, like that in Cambridge, no mirth, no hiding, no pretense, no high-sounding or profiling or mystification of psy as supreme....nothing like that at all,
just a humble worker serving with strong Christian values and faith at her heart and mind when she practice humbly the craftmanship of psychological on specific psychiatric issues.I don't know how that'd happen...
Everything I get
is for being in this call as my Triune God's daugther, and on His road.How can I serve Him?How can I cleanse
my soul and stay quietly with Him,knowing that and
being thatI am totally and
seeking completely His guidance for me?????
I dream the dream ~~
I find cognitive rehabilitation psychologists in the
Yale Community Medical Center. I wonder if I can
further specialize and find a
good Christian clinical psychologist as my
mentor there?? Or that I may be a
blessing for Christianity for my
respectable future mentor who also needs
Jesus...
I feel at peace, although it also sounds extremely impossible ~
I research about cognitive remediation and do my clinial internship on psychiatric patients utilizing group and community approaches as the main axis, and less on individual therapy. Really bring about social and therapeutic contributions for patient's quality of life.
~~What about their spiritual needs? How would I guide them and leave them to their own free will and God's sovereignty (God's free will)? What and how to approach psychiatric patients' spiritual needs? I don't want to get into the dynamics of theology and psychology as if competing dominance over secular world.
From my concern over spiritual needs for my patients, and my continual experience of God's action in my work, and my church...
I would like to take up divinity studies at the same univ. In just a few blocks away... and I see their openess and all... After my licensure, maybe do 2 subjects per semester for 2 yeas (max) as nondegree student at YDS, and transferred up to 1yr of work for MDiv or MAR.
"Successful completion of a course is noted on the student’s transcript, and transcripts will be mailed to other institutions upon request. If the student desires to enroll for a degree, the regular admission procedure must be followed. After admission as a degree candidate, students may petition the Professional Studies Committee for an evaluation of the work they did as nondegree students. The maximum number of courses that can be accepted from work done as a nondegree student at the Divinity School is eight courses toward the M.Div. or the M.A.R. (concentrated or comprehensive) degree requirements "
I don't know if this is also what my
Father seek for me...
I want to know my
Lord...
I don't know why I don't have the peace of mind, or maybe due to my own suspiciousness, or my guardedness in attempts trying to integrate theology into therapy and yet doesn't sound like theology, appeal to common yearns of men in bringing out therapy... hiding away from the
philosophical and theological adherance of it... and also doesn't seek a serious
Christian faith as the basis for its practice....
Or utilizing some therapy into
Christian arms without highlighting or addressing Christian use... I may be
wrong about the purpose of such integration, but I somehow don't have the
confidence and peace of mind to follow it and indulge myself into it. It is
something that I can just practice and currently don't see that I can research
about it.
I don't know why I have this reluctance
towards the idea..
God, should I write to LH anyway and also
apply to thier Christian-based internship anyway???
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I am learning to be a Christian along with my professional role in my career
setting. I don't know how to adjust the sincerety, authenticity, professional
goal-directed qualities in different roles and expectations by colleagues or
classmates or collaborators ...
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好多謝在電腦前的你 之 鼓勵和支持呀, 願意花心神去明白我的處境tim!!!!!
我決定會繼續 讀 這個 被受港的臨床心理學界 孤立和排斥 的 course. (因著利益的政治理由), 也不知會否如期希能到美實習並考牌, 而且會進一步加價的course.
神真係 我支盲公竹
我是在期盼 將來 兩年full-time的 實習 (internship), 神 親自 帶我到一個地方, 遇到, 跟到, 那些 祂想我 以後 事奉 和 服侍人 有的 正確定位 的好師傅.
我真係唔知點做, 和點去, 去邊至遇到. 初步只以為是一些Christian-based Internship, 也只有美國最有歷史而我的言語和passport 又可以去到
我是要將來 在信仰群眾中, 以助人見福音和神的面以至得到自由, 離開心靈的結, 逃出罪的勢力.
這些年來 神
1) 人性, 肉體 (人腦, hormones, genetics), 成長背景 去體會和明白 人心靈的結;
2) 讓我從 神學, 釋經學, spirituality靈修學 的學習和操練去抗衡罪的理論, 更能從神的真理那�支取善的力量;
3) 並真人 的服侍(不同的事奉位, 信仰階段的人) , 運用 1 和 2 於人的生命上, 更多與神不同的合作.
我求神讓我經歷神在對方/別人身上的工作, 神這些年來讓我慢慢見到和經歷到.
也是在這種與神一起作工的時間中, 有不同方面的朋友見證我說的 spirituality & psy integration的在我的個人和服侍手法/心態 中 成長
很多朋友都問 我為何都讀唔完, 一定是我好仲意讀書, 潛台詞 "所以唔出來做野",
我並不是因為好仲意讀而一直讀 是我一路做神帶我遇到的人和事 (好多都帶給我不同的震撼和痛心和反省), 就越需要這些裝備, 而且是不太清楚欠什麼, 只覺欠什麼, 再做 . 再問, 再跟, 神又讓我知多一些我需要什麼其他裝備, 也有時候是我跟那 '感覺所欠的' 到處找, 問, 和從專業中尋, 又同神傾?, 問下, 試下; 有時是要忍住唔知的, 要等神遲d 會有指示, 就好似我未來的2年Internship 咁, 我時不時就會為此切切祈禱.
其實只是我 在 回應 我的 呼召 時 一路走下去, 沿路就慢慢發覺是我所需的裝備 以 在 所呼召的路上運用, 在神帶領的所到之處 運用, gift和talent去行這路都預先比了我, 而會因越行越多運用, 而越有.
也因如此, 越用又越發覺 唔夠用, 有 我唔通的地方, 所以要另一些裝置.
我是在兩三年前慢慢才領受到 牧職的呼召的. 我有很多?問號? , 不自在, 唔係掛, 講笑咩... 其中我漸見自己的心理障礙, 知道了自己 不知道什麼了... 就是我不明白何為 牧者的心腸 (wa, 點寫?). 透過神學院的獻身營, 自己教會的獻身小組, ?姐帶我的查經, 與近3年的事奉, 對服侍的人在承擔上心中自然產生的牧養之心, 我真的體會多了.
這年讀PsyD 我就更加 --- 對不能以牧養的心服侍人的心靈而很 掙扎, 不快, 特別覺這一切都不是重要的, 多次向朋友提及 好想快d 正式 讀MDiv, 以牧者的角色 去做.... 
但又不能放棄 服侍 有心理病的人..所以不能只讀MDiv.. 所以這年的PsyD and PhD 讀得特別的痛苦, 非常的掙扎, 我指的是 專業內的角色要求 (PsyD and PhD 都很不同) 又跟牧養的心情大不協調. 我要再想下, 應該在實習時會有更多體會.
寫了好多個鐘頭至寫完....都助我的反省. 都真係幾 口水多過浪..之所以話 見到我 我通常都有 九成 機會 咁長氣
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Koala Gal: "I seem to have a difficulty of getting into the core concern and difficulty when I present my views on an issue/cluster of issues. I have to say a few times the same thing and each time may be slightly differently in the hope of getting closer to my concern. I have a rational point, and also an emotional attachment/side in that issue that I don't know how to put it, so I can only go round in a spiral, so maybe getting closer to the point as I repeat the circle.
The emotional side is: I have such a bias of not or deficit in PASSING JUDGEMENT on another person's behaviors for fear of being judgmental. Yes, we need to be careful of discerning right and wrong. You have summarized so succinctly the 4-5 levels of disagreement in Christianity principles/values interpreted from the Bible (just see ur email; from diff interpretation; diff denomination; etc), that's why when we judge that Someone is WRONG, it is the highest level of disagreement and have a narrow sense of actually going against our Christian beliefs.
OK, pretend that we have already got a clear ground of saying that it is WRONG. Then we still need to ask, what give us the reason to JUDGE. For the growth of the church members, for defending what is right/wrong..., etc. Would it be better if the reason is really about faith growth, then let the talk be used in guided discussion, and to discuss why this and that point are of 'danger' or 'actually wrong'?
My emotional side.... my reluctance in passing on judgement, my fear of being judgmental. If the grounds are there and with good reason and practicality to pass a judgement, then do it. I honestly can't get over this idea, as I thought deeply inside that only our God can judge us. We have judges to implement the man-made laws, that's ok."
Yes, I am surprised, but I have known that for quite some time already, and I can see his change and development, from don't know what to say at all, like most church-people did when my boys attended, to being fluent and understanding, but he still lacks (well, he agrees too that it is actually non-existent at all in his mind) BOUNDARIES, which I have come up with a clear set and a subtle set myself and shared with others and my brother last night.
